Who is the closest?

Thank you for your finding Ms Jill Y.

I was affected on not knowing why I wasn't able to have any liking of few men recently whom I've been meeting.
As usual the lady above has given my a psycho analysis and was kind enough to give me this report below.

why not you read and tell me of this 2 which one is meant for me

She is compulsive and intense. He or she tends to explode when angry and finds it difficult to forgive and forget. This person is passionate and seductive and has a tendency toward all-or-nothing extremes. The strong sexual energy in her is sometimes channeled into more productive pursuits and these people have the energy, drive and determination to achieve what they want.

A man who possesses a magnetic charisma is rather the type. She is attracted to men who are intense and passionate, usually the silent, brooding type. This female possesses a strong sexual magnetism and likely has many willing suitors, however, she will not settle for a man who does not match her in will-power and strength. She needs to be desired and may be turned on by a man who is slightly possessive of her. This woman needs a passionate man who has a raw sexual energy.

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Eager and enthusiastic, this person falls in love often and quickly. Friendship is important to her and once a prospective partner has proven that he or she can be this person’s best friend, love blossoms. This person can be quite confident and arrogant about his or her abilities and may appear foolish at times when he or she becomes too cocky. A positive attitude and uplifting spirit are characteristic of the person.

Such person want a man who offers friendship and fun. She is attracted to men who possess a sense-of-humor, honesty and integrity. Sharing adventures or sports with her man is particularly arousing to this female. Relationships with her usually start out as friendships and often her romances fade into friendships over time. She cannot tolerate a man who is possessive or jealous and needs a man who is as independent as she is.

love ready but non fear proof.

been engulfed in talks and topics of marriage, partnership and settle down.
naturally being practical, i knew the time has come and started looking around at some web portals...

over there, there are some who are sincere but u know that there's no connection in mind, style, appearance, character, background and experiences. one may cite the difference to nationality, language and culture.

then there are some who are too eager to please. just because i'm singaporean and not an inch like an indian conservative gal, they start talking abt their shallow encounters of their expereince with opposite sex. like who they had some wierd/unconventional relationships with, kind of woman they had bed expereince, trips with other gals and blah blah blah. this is what i call dog digging a hole thinking it would preserve what it has found but on contrary has fallen in its own hole.


but this moment is like studying in an unknown faculty that has unknown years of course duration, unknown future but with aims to graduate. marriage. if you think staying happily married is challenging, you have not experienced dating with preference. it sucks even more.

love is like the ocean. deeper you go the more you realise. you might even be suffocated to breath being a first timer. but if you're well prepared with the right gear, why fear. go for it. even for myself literally speaking diving in the ocean and not feeling the sea bed of sand is like pulling it down. the day i can feel it is the day he's the one right beside me.

What can I not do?

I wonder my guts to do Lotsa lotsa things .
Argue with higher authorities
Smoke
Go weed
Gamble
Lose tonnes of money in gambling
Play football
Go countries without passport
Go backpacking
Little of here n there.

Except
Except
Except
Falling in love. Why why why??? So phobic. So egoistic.
Feeling dejected. Feeling dependent. Feeling lonely.
All When there is love . Someone special

The best coffee makers should be regarded as the people of best service.

I don't remember waking up thinking what shall I do for the day. That is hardly the case. However, I do remember waking up and heading to the kitchen for my morning bed beverage. Yes you are right, It is COFFEE!!!.

All I'll need is Just a 1 and a half teaspoon of Nescafe, 1tsp creamer and 1/2 tsp raw sugar and that brews me a half mug of coffee.
As usual I sip my cuppa without brushing my teeth.
For I find it to be a sin to drink coffee in fluoride breath.

There were times when I would walk into deli-france for a cappuccino take-away before heading office. I would be welcomed to some deafening noises those coffee machines create while grinding those beans. Never mind those noise shrilling through my ear drums. I know that soon my nostrils will be treated to a sensual fragrance coming from those powdered java beans.

Sometimes you cant see the entire coffee preparation but let me share with you my 3 yrs of part-time barista experience on what exactly happens behind that Red LAVAZZO Magic Machine.

First a lever at the bottom of the coffee container would be pulled twice which then dispenses 10+ grams of ground coffee into the portafilter. Then a metal tamper will be forced onto it to level the powdered coffee bean. Usually a couple of metal knocking sound would follow by. This brings the untampered powder around the portafiler rim into the caked coffee bean. The barista would again tamper the portafiler to ensure no granules of coffee powder is left behind before fixing it into the Espresso Machine.

Hmmmmmm... Within seconds what a pleasant smell from the scalding coffee. Whilst the machine is slowly brewing my espresso, the barista would opens up the fridge and pour a generous amount of ice cold milk onto the Steaming Pitchers for my cappuccino froth.
The milk pitcher will be placed into a hot pipe venting out steam. Slowly this steam brings toa muffled boiling sound. Now that indicates that my milk is warm and frothed. She will then pour the rich foamy milk on my fresh espresso and Viola.. there is my Cuppaccino.

MMMMmmmmm...Now that's a sight.
Then before she closes my paper cup with the lid, she will stop immediately and sprinkle a generous amount of cocoa dust without me to interrupt her. Just the way I like it. Now This is what i call family-like service. Her smile, service, and that "See you again Nithya" is so worth spending a recurring $5.00.

Coming up soon... My Fave chinese Coffee Man from Tampines Round Market...

Unexplainable Exponential Growth of My Explosive Sensitivity

Gonna implode with seething anger.
Gonna drown in my own tears.
Gonna scream in silence.
And the metaphor goes on.
I'm feeling that this world is about to eat me up.q

This threshold for intolerance is overwhelming. But when I expect respect from people I love I beget mockery. I've decided it is ok if I stay Away and be on my own & leave me alone for now.

I can't stand them. Perhaps some of them in this Wala group can't. Some of Em  just left unspoken and I too will just leave. Cos no one has the right to overcome anyone in the name Of Joke. To mock my Culture, ridicule anything that is deemed sensitive an issue. 

I'm in a serious world of creating a name for myself. Creating a new
Me. An expecting mother who has a new Creation in her Womb undergoes the
Extreme of sensitivity in her senses and her moods. I'm no different.
My brain and mind is just evolving to create something and the outcome is going to stay A  lifetime of mine.

I'm not gonna tolerate cos I'm not the same me. Im tired of ppl who poke Fun On others for Their Own pleasure. Cos I know what they become. The biggest questionable joke Of Their Own Life. I've seen God make them suffer. 

I wanna stay away. Smiling within

Contradicting Theory

Did you know that Librans usually find themselves in conflicting positions unlike other animal or human symbol zodiac signs.Astrologically speaking I'm a contradicting person. Being a Libra I'm someone who cant deny that my thoughts get into confusion when scaling both the ugly and good facts.

I love books. If you're short of idea on what to get for me on my birthdays, just give me something to read. I'll be more than happy. That explains why my simple ikea shelf has one of the most sophisticated reading materials relating to the mind powers, spiriutal& holy, self-help, stories of famous people and touching newspaper/magazine articles. All of these books have one thing in common. When I'm down these priceless writings would perk me up. They are my anti biotics to kill any sorta viral like stresses and sadness.

In total I would say I've gotten about 50 such reading materials. But quite sometime back, whenever I'm need of an energetic potion, I'll only ransack through the astrology books. I realised that there are much better proven ideas to succeed in life and why am I still referring to unguaranteed predictions? This in fact was degrading to those 50 odd books authors' pragmatic ideas.

When I open up to the contents of those books, I'll get hooked on it. Often calculating my current planetary positions and then will start Looking through the Internet for explanation. It is an never ending search. Like opening a Pandora box.

However,now its a different story. After consulting many astrologers, this is what one would say eventually. No Matter what your star sign is, have strong faith in yourself and in God. No man can be shaken when his mind is filled with the positivity. No Man succeed because he has the best planetary positions in his chart but because he is willing to sacrifice.

Last and this year is suppose to be the best part of my time. But today I'm stuck in a rut. Like Fuck I'll say. These horoscope predictions are bullshit.
I've decided to throw those books. I've no more horoscope books on my shelf...
I chose to Have trust in myself. I rather Learn how to pray and Learn how to be morally right...

"…The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective" (James 5:16).

Raavan vs Enthiran vs Ra-One

Wanna be my Chammak Challo..
O.O.O
Wanna be my Chammak Challo.

A popular song on many young mens' facebook status boxes. Among Indian men that is.
This song by Akon, who is an American Singer will go down in history. What amazes me is him singing in 'not too bad' Hindi. A much awaited Diwali release and definitely gonan be an item song of the year 2011.

Yes, so what is the Meaning of Chammak Challo?
- it is a derogatory word describing a flashy girl, who wear ornaments that gives jingling sounds when she moves. It is used in a teasing manner on a female.


Let us read what the Chammak Challo Bebo has got to say. (click on her for better view)