It all started with "What have you been up to Naughty gal?"

Oh Dear S. S.,

Don't you think we had too many lil differences and quarrels over the past few months or a year or so. Call it petty issues that we couldnt agree upon. And then we would go missing for few weeks to months. Then again get aloof by starting to text again and getting back together. Perhaps seeking some TLC- which eventually didnt turn out to be.

It was just that this time it went beyond control. Esp when you said " no wonder you had been single". I'm sorry for my retaliation. But I had my reasons- It felt like a blow to my pride- I admit. So on my side words just streamed along with neither caution nor tact.

Was really shocked that it came from You! Well well what about you being Single... ? Wait beofre you bore me with your same monotonous excuses which are mounting work, no time etc etc, I Somehow rather hope you will tell me something new.

& back to my shock-U Knowing what I'm going through, you still blurted that out... I'm sorry for what I've texted you. Perhaps the reason is simple: There has been tension going on with us. It will be great if that could be mellowed down. With Conversations that is.

But this time you would probably say "Sorry I have trust issues"-Hmph!!!

Nevertheless I'm sorry.

Hope we can do Sushi again, before you go overseas. Catch a Beer again at Harborfront's VivoCity's Figs. And, Oh by the way, I can drive you home when I've gotten my 4 wheels by July...

Just want to give you a hug & of cos seek some good reciprocation.

This blog is sincere and is strictly intended to the Spottiswoode Resident!

:)

Hi Blog how have you been?

Not that I've been attached or seeing someone.

Just praying that if I were to see someone whom I like, Lord pls don't let him say he's afraid of commitment etc. Just tell him that he cant see a future with me & F off...

Sick of all these conceal emotions, mind games blah blah...

I'll just wait for the right one...

& Damn the wait is killing me now. Not the wait for my Beau.
But my car.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHoNNEHsz5E

Well we all know & have heard the Koreans' image over the automobiles...
They probably suck... But not till I saw This one...

feel small in the shrinking environment

she was flipping through her pending documents and doing some mental filing of their priority. As she was trying hard to focus, she couldn't take her mind of her falling businesses and how the pay lately isn't rewarding her efforts.

she looks towards her side and glanced over her colleagues of other departments. Over the past few months she isn't surprised that they too were facing a similar fate.

She felt being cheated by a partner of giving her a fake business. And afraid to sign up some new customers who she thinks might drop the policy for a shortlived exchange of gifts. sometimes she finds that being at the right place and company is very very important.

she needs a calling to be right there. hoping that somewhere her prayers will be answered. Lately she has been often gasping with the idea that if she is being short changed and her talents have been not recognised.

or perhaps is the current economic conditions that cause her to work double hard for the same rewards. its a call for survival. its a call for management and adaption. its a call for ethical behavior and tolerance level.

i love the challenges that i'm facing, but at times i got to stand tall and write the i as capital I....
It is time to Look Up.

This is my lil World.

Let this space show a different view of me from what one may see on facebook, friendster and outside etc etc. Let this be my crying hole, dead end and as always a sanctuary for me to pray.

I realise that in this lil red dot island, the real God is Government. Never ever go against it or else you will regret. I meant anyone who is superior to you. Your parents, teachers, bosses and of cos the government.

Another reason for this space is that no matter how much I try to smile or let them out there know I'm good, it has never been that better.

Can't help but I feel that I'm still in a sea paddling with an almost broken oar. It needs tremendous amount of efforts to reach the shore. Sometimes I feel that in the end reaching that island might be futile, knowing that there wouldn't be anyone by the time I reach it. Or perhaps my hands would be useless and gone for anything else. At times I feel like jumping off the ship and rather swim. Let go of the ambition and lead a simple life. A swimming pool life? Limited but safe. At least you are surrounded by people who can save you. In the name of conditional love.

This is my space and let me write what those smiles can't really say much. I just want to keep my family life back on track. So much wanting to show my involvement but I just give way in the name of sales, work and school. I don't know but after so much of struggle its still rock bottom.
Endless outflow of water.

I've heard of this somewhere and perhaps this is how my next 1 year should be.
I have a ship. I always wanted to paint and beautify it. But now my ship is in a crisis. I've got no time to paint it but to spend all my energy & focus on siphoning out the water before I sink together with it.

Teaching the Teachable

Recently I've met a friend of mine who used to be working in the same Company as I do.
She has a earned the reputation on her own for the last 4 years working in Pru. To me she obviously didn't possess the best of criterias & demographics. She's Indian, young, inexperienced, and very very small. Smaller than I am. Her achievements are beyond commensurable. She was the top sales yearly without fail. However her departure wasn't and never should happen to anyone of us... Which to me it was ugly and painful to what I can think of.

At one look I'll think that she is just born for this job. But is she? Not really. To her she is born to Teach. what she is for. Her passion. Somewhat to think of Teaching is the Noble job. Admist no matter how much money one reaps the joy of teaching can never be compensated. In a (my) world where results and monetary figures are highly credited, how would one be able to realise the sincere appreciations of their students.

At times I just feel like tearing within asking Y am I here? To earn, learn, yearn???
Probably it is to be taught of the world, eventually. Rewarding as well in the Materialistic manner.

In the end educating is the most rewarding career isn't it. Enlightening the young minds. At times like these aren't they still guranteed with the job and still have students flowing to them like never tomorrow. Perhaps I should and would one day...

Everything Happens for A Reason... & Life is indeed fair.

So we were all crushed, thrashed & washed off our integrity of selling investments, I would somehow have to thank the Lehmann's Brothers saga.

Lots of changes are happening around my world. The Bank that is.

I'm shifting back to North Bridge. To be precise shifting from the team I can't work with.

Hmm lost some inspiration to write, so lets me go in pointers whats happening in my life now.

• did some trading
• realised there's no such thing as making money only when the markets are good.
• made profits when the prices slump too
• my partnership with my banking partner improved and wanted to max out our best.
• but sadly she's shifting to the branch & my entire working model changes.
• I stick with the Loans manager now for referrals of Insurance cases & its gonna be a tough way to close deals.
• I'm gonna do a part time job which is fire & building related.
• My basic pay might increase too
• I'm going to be bored as there will only be guys in my team.
• I hope there be lesser roadshows
• Companies and industry shares are like in cheap cheap cheap sale.
• I realise its not that tough to get what I desire.
• I've been neglecting my family
• I've lesser time for social...
• Perhaps faster route to million$$$.
• What the hell,I'm still struggling
• I might have more time to study & workout.
• I have not been intimate for quite sometime... Just plain dating...
• I miss my 'irreconcilable' badly... but bet he doesn't anymore...
• All thanks to work & I hardly talk to him that much.
• Apart from that I've forgotten my Ex... Thanks to work too
• I miss making love too... Venus glory gone.
• I would like to take a break
• & perhaps go to Aust or Bali
• I still cry at times when my work goes way outta hand
• I feel there's isn't anyone by my side
• Yet I'm cool about it as I chose such
• I want to learn and play tennis

this GAME IS FREAKING DAMN FUN... I THROW THIS CHALENGE TO ALL THE MAN OUT THR

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